Something to think about is that building is a lot easier than you might think. Yes there is tons and tons of wonderful information here but the build comes down to a metal ruler and sharp knife, e6000 glue, tape and clamps and patience. You can get your kit pretrimmed. I got an AP kit pretrimmed and 3 months later I was in the 501st and applying for EIB and Centurion status. I thought and as many have too, don't want to mess something up. Not like you can go to your local store to buy a new forearm. But once I started, I felt better I wasn't going mess anything up....it's easier to think you'll mess something up when you haven't done it before. We all admire you for the reason you want to join, it's the core meaning of the 501st. Seeing those kids and even adults so excited with seeing you is one of the best feelings!