I'm just checking in to report that I'm at a cross-roads of sort with this whole eating/weight thing. Right now, I am just so tired of all of the work required to eat healthy and see little or no results, most of the time the only results I do see is weight gain.
I get real down on myself because 6 years ago I did weight watchers and lost almost 30 lbs, and I've gained it all back slowly. I've been exercising regularly, drinking TONS of water and trying to make smart decisions when it comes to eating, been going to the gym for the past 2 years but I'm still gaining weight (and not muscle weight either - fat weight). The only thing that really makes a difference is what I put in my mouth. I've gone back to weight watchers meetings in the past and tried recommitting, but birthdays, holidays, family visits, weekends all take it's toll and the healthy eating just becomes such a burden and pain in the butt to maintain, especially since I'm the only one in my family trying to eat healthy.
I'm realizing nobody cares whether I'm fat or thin. I'm the only one who obsesses over it, I'm the only one who cares. Lately dieting has just felt like such a punishment, especially when I don't see any results. I am at the point where I am ready to just give up, or do a 'get thin quick' fad diet because the regular way just isn't working for me anymore.